VENTING

I need to VENT.... FUUUUUCKKKKKK why is my boss such a dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He can be an awesome person, at times i think "wow he actually isnt that bad", but then its days like today where i want to literally pick up a chair and hit him with it. Have you ever met someone who shouts at you and actually physically counts to ten to calm himself down! Idiot. I almost cried, thank goodness i didnt i will never show him that he has gotten to me. If only you knew what i was thinking boss man. You lucky you bought me a muffin this morning and that i didnt spit in your coffee (theres alway tomorrow). Haha...

I just made myself smile, my boiling levels are coming down, im thinking of rainbows and butterflies....... rainbows and butterflies..... rainbows and butterflies... phew... That was close.... asshole... ok its done now..

I want to travel so badly. New York, Europe... Everywhere.. I wish i could just jump from island to island and work on one, then go to another work there and so on. Would be absolutely amazing. I just need to do it. I want to be able to tell my kids of my adventures, i want to make something of my life.. I dont want to be the same boring person forever :) ... When someone says to me what have you done with you life, i want to be like more than you mother effer... ok i wouldnt really say that but you know what i mean...

Well, thats my thoughts today... :) kbye....

mysterious

Have you ever met someone mysterious?

Its almost like wanting someone you cant have. They would be the type of person who leave you hanging on every last word they say right? Right!

That actual definition is: "wonder and inquisitiveness, an eluding explanation or comprehension". Its so true. What happens if this 'mysterious' person is not who you think they are cos you lead to believe who they are by how YOU think they are. If that makes sense.

I know one of these :) hehe. Still figuring him out though. Hes wonderful. A likable person. I mean he gets along well with everyone. He's funny. Generally one of the 'cool guys'. But the most powerful aspect is his mind. Such a stong minded person who can sum people up very quickly.

I like one of these. An interesting person to say the least. The only person to catch my attention in THREE YEARS. Why is it though that there will always be something stopping me from just wondering to actually finding out. Just my luck huh?

You've probably guessed that this is the same guy i wrote about in September. Clever clever :)
I would never tell him that it makes me smile to see him, or that i actually listen to what he has to say, or that its hard to not talk to him. I could never say that, and i probably wont cause thats just me. Unfortunately.

But like i said before, thats the wonderful thing about TIME, ill soon get over it and realise it was nothing... Time is the best sometimes...

Over and out... Im thinking to much today.. I know why! Dammit...

Ive done it AGAIN.

So its been a month and a half since i wrote again, WOW... This is the third time in a row that im apologising to my blog :( Whoopsie...

That gave me an idea about time. Time goes no where. I mean think about it, all those things that you'll say you're going to do and you dont end up doing it cos time just went so quickly and other things came up. Time is a big bitch these days. It can be a good thing too.

That guy i loved more than i ever loved any other guy in Aus, took me so much TIME to get over him. And ya if i had to see him again i probably would fall for him so easily again, but for now im strong. Id rather not see him. Its better that way.

Time, im 20 and ive seen my dad about ten times in my whole life. Time is going so quickly. I dont even know him. I dont know what his favourite colour or band or even what food he likes. I know the basic facts. Thats it, nothing more. Its sad. But i suppose thats life.

Time, ive been working with my boss for almost 2 years, where has it all gone, and i STILL havent done something about it, i definitely need to find a new job, at 20 a job shouldnt be so emotionally draining!!!!

Time, ive lost some friends over the years, maybe some were a good thing, others have just drifted with time. Some i miss more than ever. But just in the same amount of time, ive met the most amazing people.

TIME is a big issue in my life today. I need to blady well prioritise a bit more, manage my time better, get up earlier in the mornings, go for a swim or something. (Which i have started but at 6pm hehe aiming for 6am)

Time also scares me. Im getting older, so are my parents, I dont want my mom to get old. I need her in my life, i want her there more than any other person.

Dont you wish sometimes you could just freeze a moment, a moment where you laughed so much your tummy hurt, or where a complete stranger made you feel amazing, or a family moment that made your heart all warm and fuzzy. Just a moment, somewhere somehow frozen to enjoy.

Now obviously we cant do that, thats why i want save every single moment in my life. Good or bad, its a memory that i will never get back cause as soon as that time goes on thats it. Its gone...

Be thankful for the time you have, use it wisely, be happy... Live, Love and Laugh. Its the way to go :)