The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth!!!!

Guys, hmmm... Why do guys do the things they do? You all want to act like you are untouchable, like nothing bothers you when in fact you have a million and one things running through your head at once. Guys are worse then girls, apparently.... Ive heard they over analyze things ten times more than we do?

Heres me for any guy that wants to know and doesnt, this is for you:

I love to laugh, and i smile alot, but just because i smile it doesnt mean that im ok. Im clumsy and may not know much general knowledge so when you talking about things i dont know of, dont think that im stupid, im a numbers person, give me a spreadsheet with a million mathamatical equations and i will work them out in no time. Im scared of the dark and i have this silly theory that when it thunders a tidal wave is going to come.... I hate it when people judge. Im fun and outgoing and i will never make you feel less than amazing. Im soft, i get hurt easily, i cry but i pick myself up and i learn from it. I love to sing and dance, and make fun of myslelf. Im serious but at the same time, im so chilled. My family is my world, dont ever mess with them, as sweet as i may seem, i can be the biggest bitch. Im wierd and not perfect at all. I break things alot, and i try to stay away from fancy things :) I have the weakest immune system, i get sick easily. I have asthma and a heart murmur. Im scared of needles but i have 2 tattoos and a belly ring. If i set my mind to something i usually 9 times out of 10 accomplish it. Im competitive and hard working, and i will bend over backwards for anyone. I usually get hurt this way. When something bothers me i tend to close up and pull away rather than talking about it. Im honest and funny and i take a while to be myself around you. Im not materialistic at all, im super sentimental and believe in fairies. I believe that age is just a number and that experience and what you've been through in life is really what makes you who you are. This is me, the good the bad and the truth. Im human....

Ive always in the past settled for a guy, ive decided to NEVER do that again!!!!

SO I have formed myself a little checklist when it comes to "potential" boyfriends/flings.

The list:

• 3 or more years older than me
• Tall
• motivated
• non-dramatic
• fun and funny
• family orientated
• MUST WANT OWN SPACE
• eyes must 'tell a story'
• affectionate
• loving
• strong, cos i like beating my boys up.. haha just joking
• really gentle
• soft
• interesting
• fantastic and awesome and amazing all put into one.
• must take things slow
• must not only want one thing, if so youre out of luck buddy!

What happened to the days where a guy was just himself around you, with no lies or barriers just himself. Someone who will just sms or call to tell you they thinking of you. Someone who says it how it is, who doesnt play games with your head and heart. Someone who isnt afraid to be scared of life or love, someone who can laugh at themselves, who isnt scared to make a fool of themselves, someone whos relaxed but works hard too.. What happened to guys who respect you and not treat you like you are lucky to have THEM? What happened to the guys that really paid attention to what you were saying, or sat down to listen to what you had to say instead of just talking about themselves. What happened to a guy that is perfect, but by being perfect, his imperfections made him that way. I want someone who is totally amazing and treats me like a queen as i would them a king...
If you are out there, or potentially could be that way, then please send you're filled out application to me :)