VENTING

I need to VENT.... FUUUUUCKKKKKK why is my boss such a dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He can be an awesome person, at times i think "wow he actually isnt that bad", but then its days like today where i want to literally pick up a chair and hit him with it. Have you ever met someone who shouts at you and actually physically counts to ten to calm himself down! Idiot. I almost cried, thank goodness i didnt i will never show him that he has gotten to me. If only you knew what i was thinking boss man. You lucky you bought me a muffin this morning and that i didnt spit in your coffee (theres alway tomorrow). Haha...

I just made myself smile, my boiling levels are coming down, im thinking of rainbows and butterflies....... rainbows and butterflies..... rainbows and butterflies... phew... That was close.... asshole... ok its done now..

I want to travel so badly. New York, Europe... Everywhere.. I wish i could just jump from island to island and work on one, then go to another work there and so on. Would be absolutely amazing. I just need to do it. I want to be able to tell my kids of my adventures, i want to make something of my life.. I dont want to be the same boring person forever :) ... When someone says to me what have you done with you life, i want to be like more than you mother effer... ok i wouldnt really say that but you know what i mean...

Well, thats my thoughts today... :) kbye....

mysterious

Have you ever met someone mysterious?

Its almost like wanting someone you cant have. They would be the type of person who leave you hanging on every last word they say right? Right!

That actual definition is: "wonder and inquisitiveness, an eluding explanation or comprehension". Its so true. What happens if this 'mysterious' person is not who you think they are cos you lead to believe who they are by how YOU think they are. If that makes sense.

I know one of these :) hehe. Still figuring him out though. Hes wonderful. A likable person. I mean he gets along well with everyone. He's funny. Generally one of the 'cool guys'. But the most powerful aspect is his mind. Such a stong minded person who can sum people up very quickly.

I like one of these. An interesting person to say the least. The only person to catch my attention in THREE YEARS. Why is it though that there will always be something stopping me from just wondering to actually finding out. Just my luck huh?

You've probably guessed that this is the same guy i wrote about in September. Clever clever :)
I would never tell him that it makes me smile to see him, or that i actually listen to what he has to say, or that its hard to not talk to him. I could never say that, and i probably wont cause thats just me. Unfortunately.

But like i said before, thats the wonderful thing about TIME, ill soon get over it and realise it was nothing... Time is the best sometimes...

Over and out... Im thinking to much today.. I know why! Dammit...

Ive done it AGAIN.

So its been a month and a half since i wrote again, WOW... This is the third time in a row that im apologising to my blog :( Whoopsie...

That gave me an idea about time. Time goes no where. I mean think about it, all those things that you'll say you're going to do and you dont end up doing it cos time just went so quickly and other things came up. Time is a big bitch these days. It can be a good thing too.

That guy i loved more than i ever loved any other guy in Aus, took me so much TIME to get over him. And ya if i had to see him again i probably would fall for him so easily again, but for now im strong. Id rather not see him. Its better that way.

Time, im 20 and ive seen my dad about ten times in my whole life. Time is going so quickly. I dont even know him. I dont know what his favourite colour or band or even what food he likes. I know the basic facts. Thats it, nothing more. Its sad. But i suppose thats life.

Time, ive been working with my boss for almost 2 years, where has it all gone, and i STILL havent done something about it, i definitely need to find a new job, at 20 a job shouldnt be so emotionally draining!!!!

Time, ive lost some friends over the years, maybe some were a good thing, others have just drifted with time. Some i miss more than ever. But just in the same amount of time, ive met the most amazing people.

TIME is a big issue in my life today. I need to blady well prioritise a bit more, manage my time better, get up earlier in the mornings, go for a swim or something. (Which i have started but at 6pm hehe aiming for 6am)

Time also scares me. Im getting older, so are my parents, I dont want my mom to get old. I need her in my life, i want her there more than any other person.

Dont you wish sometimes you could just freeze a moment, a moment where you laughed so much your tummy hurt, or where a complete stranger made you feel amazing, or a family moment that made your heart all warm and fuzzy. Just a moment, somewhere somehow frozen to enjoy.

Now obviously we cant do that, thats why i want save every single moment in my life. Good or bad, its a memory that i will never get back cause as soon as that time goes on thats it. Its gone...

Be thankful for the time you have, use it wisely, be happy... Live, Love and Laugh. Its the way to go :)

WHERE the ef have i been......

So i havent been on my blog in YEARS... ok not that long but still, im disgusted that this is the second time in a row that i have to apologise to my blog.. Ashbashlikesmash, i sincerely apologise for not blogging. I will more promise :)....


Ok so new things in my life:

• I dont know if i like bookkeeping, its boring.
• BUT i guess its a qualification.
• Im doing singing lessons now...

You might not know that singing is like my PASSION. You know that feeling you get when you might be feeling soooo shit or down or angry and that one thing just takes you to a different place, singing does that for me. It makes me so happy. SO happy...

Another thing... MY GOSH... I have never had this happen to me in my life before.. and everyone knows how im ANTI relationships and love and blah blah all that shit. I went somewhere sometime ago, and i saw someone (it sounds so mysterious), and i couldnt keep my eyes off that person, and i noticed that he couldnt keep his eyes off me. Not like a i want your sex type of look, like something deeper than that. Ive never had someone look so deeply into my eyes before, like he could see through me, NOW i cant stop thinking about him. I cant get him out my head, he needs to go away cause i dont like this feeling. I dont like feeling for any male whatsoever.. So here is my mental note to u dreamboy.. shhhhewww away.. please.. Leave my thoughts. And its not like hes ever going to read this. There are so many reasons why i shouldnt be thinking about him, trust me its complicated. Or know exactly what i was thinking at that time or now. But what better way to get it out then to do it on here. And by writing it, i love writing. :) ....

Ok so my new tattoo.. It says Live.Love.Laugh. after Don died, i realised that life is so short, and that in life those three little words are soooo important. So it inspired me to get the tattoo. It pretty :)

What else, hmmmm... Im happy.. Really happy... I do want to change a few things in my life, that im getting around to doing. But that will take time. Atleast they are happening. So for now, im happy. I love my life and everyone in it. I wouldnt change the amazing people for anything. Every single one of them inspire me in some way. Each and everyone of them are special in some way.

Oh well, i better get back to work now. :)

updates.... :)

I have been so useless with my blog lately... Not cool at all... SO im apologising to my awesome most bestest blog.. Ashbashlikesmash... I will be there more promise :)

So i liked this boy recently, an actual real life boy.. hehe. But he doesnt live here :( (hope he doesnt see this). Its ok though, cause i suppose its not meant to be. I will survive, just a little..

He's awesome!! You my list i have, well he nails most of them. And just my luck to know it will NEVER work with the distance or maybe he doesnt feel the same, i dont know. But anyway, first guy ive had feelings for since my ex. Which is a step forward i suppose, but in the same breath im loving the single life. No one to answer to or impress. You just get to be you (not that im any different with a bf).

Im loving life at the moment, except i wish my daddio Peter was closer!

Im also so busy with work, i have an actual client, its awesome... Extra money, extra work.. I will get there one day. And im doing my bookkeeping course now with UNISA. Im moving up in the world kids ;) hehe...

Anyway, im drowing in work, which i have to get back to. And i need a wee, just saying...

DON

My cousin died last year... Septemeber 24th... It killed me! I cant even explain to anyone what it felt like, that feeling of something so important being a ripped away from you and so many other people in less than a minute.. Not one day goes by where i dont think of him, or what if... He is like a brother to me, and i dont know how im going to ever get over this. I cant and i dont know how too...

I miss you Don... And if i could just hug you and tell u i love you one last time, it wouldnt even be enough... You were taken far to early, and its so hard to think about it... That phone call, exactly 3 hours before talking to you, plays over and over and over again in my head... I got to hear ur voice for the last time that day, im grateful for that... But at the same time, i wish i had a replay and a pause button...

If i could i would bring you back today... in a heartbeat. You are such a precious person, and i cant even explain to you how important you to so many people!!!!!!

I love you don...

Song by Good Charlotte- Emotionaless

Hey dad
I’m writing to you
Not to tell you
That I still hate you
Just to ask you
How you feel
And how we fell apart
How this fell apart

Are you happy out there
In this great wide world
Do you think about your sons
Do you miss your little girl
When you lay your head down
How do you sleep at night
Do you even wonder if we’re alright
But we’re alright
We’re alright

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years
Learning how to survive
Now I’m writing just to let you know
I’m still alive

The days I spent
So cold, so hungry
Were full of hate
I was so angry
The scars run deep inside
This tattooed body
There’s things I’ll take
To my grave
But I’m ok
I’m ok

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I’m writing just to let you know
I’m still alive
And I’m still alive

Sometimes I forget
Yeah, and this time
I’ll admit that I miss you
Said I miss you

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I’m writing just to let you know
I’m still alive

And sometimes I forget
This time I’ll admit
That I miss you
I miss you
Hey dad

**Wierd Feelings**

Ive been feeling so wierd lately, like so angry with everything. I dont know why, i feel like i want to scream really loud and then punch something as hard as i can. Thats not me, im soft and cuddly and i couldnt beat up an ant if i tried. I wish i could feel like me again. As the years go by i learn more and more who i am, what pushes me, what im capable of, who i can and cannot trust and what life is about.

Love doesnt exist to me, im not looking for it, but i look at people's relationships and friendships and so on and i just dont see it, im not judging the people, more the situation. Someone who read my blog told me that im brave for putting my feelings out there :) I cant say them, but give me a pen and paper and i will let you know whats on my mind and why. Id rather make fun of myself then tell you out loud what im feeling. Silly i know.

Maybe im angry cause i heard this song the other day, ill post it on here sometime, called Emotionaless. Its about a guy whose dad walked out on him. I miss my dad. I wont lie, it sucks not being able to talk to him or share something about my day with him or for him to share something with me. Since December he hasnt spoken to me. I organised something for him for christmas i emailed him to ask for his address and since then i havent received anything from him. I hate the fact that hes there, but not there if you know what i mean... My heart hurts so much because he doesnt want to be involved in my life, and im getting over it, believe me i have come a LONG way. And it has made me tougher, but its made me write off people that dont put a 100% into things, which is bad as well cause everyone is different, everyone does things differently to the way other people do. Thats a huge lesson im learning, not to jump the gun cause i think i know what someone is feeling or thinking. WE are all different. I suppose you realise that over time and years, yes you think it, but to actually realise it and understand it, is what counts.

Wow this post is so emotional, sorry guys, im just feeling sad today and what better way to let it out on here then to bore anyone with how im feeling... Dont get me wrong, im soooo grateful for everything in my life, but you get those days :(

ok im hungry now, the grumbling of my tummy is vibrating my brain!!!! And i got so much work.. Ive stopped complaining now. Its all out.. promise.. Oh my word, im so.... no just joking, its really all out now.. Until next time hehe....

The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth!!!!

Guys, hmmm... Why do guys do the things they do? You all want to act like you are untouchable, like nothing bothers you when in fact you have a million and one things running through your head at once. Guys are worse then girls, apparently.... Ive heard they over analyze things ten times more than we do?

Heres me for any guy that wants to know and doesnt, this is for you:

I love to laugh, and i smile alot, but just because i smile it doesnt mean that im ok. Im clumsy and may not know much general knowledge so when you talking about things i dont know of, dont think that im stupid, im a numbers person, give me a spreadsheet with a million mathamatical equations and i will work them out in no time. Im scared of the dark and i have this silly theory that when it thunders a tidal wave is going to come.... I hate it when people judge. Im fun and outgoing and i will never make you feel less than amazing. Im soft, i get hurt easily, i cry but i pick myself up and i learn from it. I love to sing and dance, and make fun of myslelf. Im serious but at the same time, im so chilled. My family is my world, dont ever mess with them, as sweet as i may seem, i can be the biggest bitch. Im wierd and not perfect at all. I break things alot, and i try to stay away from fancy things :) I have the weakest immune system, i get sick easily. I have asthma and a heart murmur. Im scared of needles but i have 2 tattoos and a belly ring. If i set my mind to something i usually 9 times out of 10 accomplish it. Im competitive and hard working, and i will bend over backwards for anyone. I usually get hurt this way. When something bothers me i tend to close up and pull away rather than talking about it. Im honest and funny and i take a while to be myself around you. Im not materialistic at all, im super sentimental and believe in fairies. I believe that age is just a number and that experience and what you've been through in life is really what makes you who you are. This is me, the good the bad and the truth. Im human....

Ive always in the past settled for a guy, ive decided to NEVER do that again!!!!

SO I have formed myself a little checklist when it comes to "potential" boyfriends/flings.

The list:

• 3 or more years older than me
• Tall
• motivated
• non-dramatic
• fun and funny
• family orientated
• MUST WANT OWN SPACE
• eyes must 'tell a story'
• affectionate
• loving
• strong, cos i like beating my boys up.. haha just joking
• really gentle
• soft
• interesting
• fantastic and awesome and amazing all put into one.
• must take things slow
• must not only want one thing, if so youre out of luck buddy!

What happened to the days where a guy was just himself around you, with no lies or barriers just himself. Someone who will just sms or call to tell you they thinking of you. Someone who says it how it is, who doesnt play games with your head and heart. Someone who isnt afraid to be scared of life or love, someone who can laugh at themselves, who isnt scared to make a fool of themselves, someone whos relaxed but works hard too.. What happened to guys who respect you and not treat you like you are lucky to have THEM? What happened to the guys that really paid attention to what you were saying, or sat down to listen to what you had to say instead of just talking about themselves. What happened to a guy that is perfect, but by being perfect, his imperfections made him that way. I want someone who is totally amazing and treats me like a queen as i would them a king...
If you are out there, or potentially could be that way, then please send you're filled out application to me :)

Being sick in 2011!!!!

Im feeling so sorry for myself today! I cant believe that this is the 5th time this year that i have been sick :(    Thats once a month so far!

January:

I was dieting quite hectically and kept on getting dizzy spells and fainted a few times. My blood pressure was too high and my sugar levels werent doing to well either! (too low)

Februaury:

I got pharyngitis an infection that starts with flu and tonsilitus but then moves down your throat and infects your pharynx!

March:

I got bit by a big ass spider and got so sick from the poison, got blood poisoning and it was very painful!!!

April:

I got severe tonsilitus, almost ended up in hospital from my temps and thats when the doctor decided my tonsils need to come out, which is going to happen in the next 2 months!!!

May:

I got flu the other day!!!!!!!!! Just when i got better the flu bug decided to come and attack me..

To: ALL SICKNESSES

Please leave me alone, i have never done anything to you. Im healthy and active and wash my hands ALOT!
So please leave me to be, i have not been to gym in a month because of you, restricting my kfc eating :( Im now grumpy and have withdrawal sypmtoms and i feel so shit...

Kind Regards,

Ash

Oats!!!!!!!!

Every morning i have a little packet of oats for breakfast. We have this love/hate relationship!!! They are messy little bitches. Not one morning will go past where i dont mess my oats somewhere.

Yesterday my cousin, Kelly, had the funniest thing happen to her. She was sitting at work eating oats when her boss walked in. He stood infront of her desk and kept on wiping his lip. So my cousin sticks her tongue out and thinks theres something there and licks her lips. So her boss takes his finger and scratches the right side of his lip. By this time she cant effing find the piece of oats that is stuck on her lip. Eventually she finds it with her boss laughing and her blushing. Bright spark over here (me) is laughing my head off at her, thinking how on earth can you not feel it! When little did i know it was my turn the next day!

I got to work this morning and made my oats. Everyone had come into work by this time, so i had a full office. I sat all quietly fighting with my packet of oats cause they wouldnt open, when i finally tore the packet open swearing at it, it spilt everywhere, so i calmly picked it all up off the counter and applied the 10 second rule (pretty gross i know), got it safely in my bowl and waited for the kettle to boil, then the water came gushing out splashing all over my shirt and half the oats were out the bowl AGAIN, so i checked around to make sure that no one was watching me and AGAIN applied the 10 second rule :)

Finally i was back at my desk enjoying my mess up of a breakfast. Eating away, i finished my whole bowl and took it to the kitchen. On the way back to my desk i stopped in the accountants office for a little chat, her and her clients all sitting nicely staring at me with wierd expressions on their faces, I just thought i looked nice today or something!?

So i wondered off back to my desk, one of the clients came in to collect some things, once again looking at me like an effing wierdo. BUT i carried on working, a sales man came past trying to sell me something with his eyes fixed on my chin, so starting to feel a bit uneasy i went to the bathroom to find, im not lying, like a spoooooon full of oats on my face!!!!!!!!!! seriously, why did no one just tell me! It must have looked so gross!! So if any of you that saw it on me and forgot to mention that i had half of Europe on my face, IT WAS NOT A SIF SORE or some type of disease. It was oats!

So oats, thank you for fulling my tummy in the mornings... BUT i hate you, that is all.....

My brother, my best friend!

Okay sooo, i phoned my brother the other day to see how things were and he was quite disappointed with his 'about brands' section in my first blog, so heres a post just for him!!!!

When my mom and my step dad met, Brands and i hated eachother. He used to tease me so much and i couldnt stand that. On my 7th birthday i had all my friends over with a jumping castle and he told everyone that i scratched my bum :) hey! when you 7 thats a big thing! So anyway we didnt get along at all.

We moved to Cape town shortly after that, just my step dad, mom and myself. I hadnt seen Brands in a while, when him and Dazz came to visit us for the school holidays. I had (just before they came) stitches in my foot and couldnt walk. When they arrived Brands was all awesome and grown up, he carried me EVERYWHERE on his back and helped me alot that holiday, that was when our "bond" was formed.

We ended up moving back to Scottburgh where brands moved in with us and this was just too amazing for me, having my big brother there, who was now a cop! I mean what teenage girl doesnt want that, no one gave me shit. Every heartbreak or bad day, he was there to cheer me up, take me driving, pay for my gym and hunt down any guy that hurt his "little sister". He went from my big brother to my best biggest brother and bestfriend!

As i got older the more closer we got. Thats when the sneaking out started. Brands was the getaway car with me and a friend bolting for the car door as we went drinking and partying. Bad influence?? ;)
Then we moved to Australia and it killed me to think that i would be away from my big brother, my best friend was being taken away from me, who i went from seeing every single day to nothing at all. My other half was ripped away and its sucked!!!! Didnt stop us from chatting everyday though.

Then one day when everything was fine in Aus we got a phone call. My sister begged on the phone to phone back urgently. We called back and received the WORST news. My brother had been shot, and no one knew if he was going to make it. Hearing that news made me sick to my stomach, tears just flowed as i fell to the ground thinking that he was gone, now he was  really gone, not just in distance but in life. I cant even explain the things that go though your head or the feelings that you feel when someone that important to you is almost dead. We flew back from Aus the day after that to see my brother who hadnt said a word yet and was in ICU. I am proud to say that my brother is the strongest person i know. He made it through it all and has recovered so well.

SO Brands, i hope you're reading this. I just want you to know that you are so IMPORTANT to me. I support you 100% in life and i will never give up or think otherwise of you. You are amazing and awesome and cool all in one. I am so PROUD and HAPPY to be able to call you my brother! Love you big bro!!!!

Easter :) makes you feel like a kid again!!!!

Am i the only 19 year old (almost 20) that has my easter eggs hidden? I mean really who wouldnt want that? besides the new number you see the next day on the scale (that i could have sworn was less last week), its awesome!!! I feel like a kid again, the feeling of waking up early to go find all the millions of easter eggs that have been hidden in hard to find places with the joy gleaming from your parentals faces (they start getting more excited) while screaming "Your hot, really hot, ok EXTREMELY HOT, dam your cold again!!!".... While your on your knees under the tree that your dog wee'd against the other night and shat just next to the place where your dad hides your easter egg cause he thinks it will be funny, you think in your head "dam this is so cool, i wish i was a kid again!!!!!".

My point is, theres a time to be serious and responsible and boring and mature but sometimes you can be lame and childish and go play in the mud and watch cartoon network (and look for easter eggs) too. Life is short and way to intense to be a grown up all the time. I heard a saying that goes "Adults are just children with money".

I, personally, think that im going to be THEE coolest mom ever. Yes i will be strict and give smacks and have rules but in the same breath im going to get down and dirty and colour in, play in the mud and just enjoy my children. Just to let you all know, i already have three possible names for a boy and a girl (although i want a boy)... My future husband has no chance in getting first names maybe he can choose a second name, maybe....

P.S Im only planning on having kids in 8-10 years :) so breath now :)

Settling...

Why do people settle for things? I mean, when a girl meets a guy and finds a thousand things wrong with him in the first month, why do you still settle for him! I've settled in the past! For a guy that mentally and emotionally abused me! He pushed me around and hated when he was wrong!

So why did I stay? Have you ever had someone who broke your confidence so badly that you didn't know how to leave? Someone who would manipulate every situation but "the fight" wasn't worth it so you would just back down and accept it because settling was easy? I did that!! All the time, so now I'm just saying that my settling days are over!!

No man will ever tell me again how to live my life, and possibly my favourite saying: if u hit me,go to sleep... Cos I will bust out a pan on your head... Just saying :)

Out with the OLD and in with the NEW.

I read a book quite a while ago about a lady, whose husband cheats on her and all that, and basically she needs to change her life and get rid of all the old things and bring in the new, like try new things.
Soooo i figured why cant we live our life like a book? Dont you wish it was that easy? A beginning, a body and a happy ending. But then again they say that: how is a happy ending happy, if it ends?

I guess i was forced to grow up quickly. I finished school at the age of 16, studied and worked. Im turning 20 this year and am happy to say that my oh my have i had a hectic 4 years!!!! So im just writing to say that who cares about all the hectic shit that goes down in your life, if your still kicking then why not just learn and move on,every bad or hard experience only makes you who you are today. Okay! phew now that thats out, i got a story for you guys :)

Two weeks ago i decided to have my very fluffy awesome white boots washed and hung on the line to dry. About 2 days later i decided that i wanted to bust out my fluffy-ness. I pulled them off the line with a huge grin on my face and put my hand inside the boot to feel if they were dry enough to wear, when i picked up something rolling in the boot... Pulled it out, to find it was a nice wet soggy piece of DOG SHIT!!!!!! All squished up on my hand. I swear it was basically staring back me saying: ''mwahahah yeah take that bitch".

So anyway after much thought about how it could have got in there, i came to the conclusion that my maid had washed them, and put them on the floor then my little small dog, must have strained extremely hard to get his ass nicely on the top of my very long boot and let it out, right? WRONG!!!!

Peter (my dad) decided it would be a huge joke to put it in my boot :) Can you feel the love? BUT paybacks a bitch :) just saying...

me, my life, my family, oh and my car!!!

So im new to this whole blog thing and i figured that seeing as its about my life, why not tell you about....my life? :)

Me- Im Ash, for those of you who dont know. I like to think im fun and bubbly and care free, but really i am also a human who cries and worries about my hair and all that stuff. Im wierd and extrememly random, but no matter what, im always smiling.

My Family- I possibly have the LARGEST family known to man :) My parents got divorced when i was 4. Im an only child from my moms side, she re-married my awesome step dad. He then gave me three beautiful siblings... My step brothers and sister-blister :). My dad is a wierdo. But nevertheless he gave me two brothers.

The Characters:

My mom- The best woman i know, shes my best friend, my rock. Shes a perfectionist and beautiful and funny all in one. She could party me under the table ANYDAY

Peter- My step dad... Hes like my real dad, did i say step dad?? what!! Hes been in my life for the past 17 years and i wouldnt change it for anyone or anything, we argue NON-STOP but that us, love him to death!

Grandpaa Geoff- Fell in love with my moms best friend who's 48. Yes you read right, my grandpas a PIMP.. But seriously the most sweetest gentleman i have ever met.

Sheena-Bee- my sister blister. We have our own language and when we are in the same room together its havoc, shes my idol and possibly the best female influence i have in my life, accept for when she snort-laughs... :)

Brands- my oldest brother... He is an absolute inspiration, he got shot 3 times.. He always used to say that bullets bounce off him cause hes made of steel, guess that was true!

Dazzie- my younger-older brother- Ive never met someone who could tell you about literally 99 different blades of grass, hes a nature freak, we're leo, we argue but in any situation we have eachothers backs. He doesnt admit it, but secretly he's one of the most intelligent people i know and definitely has the softest squishiest most lovable heart!

Cody-king of all doggies- Hes like my brother, ive never met a dog more like a human in my life. He eats human food, basically talks, and wait for it, only drinks water out the water machine OUT OF A GLASS... He is possibly the most loved child, in our family when it comes to Peter!

Faith- my little UNO. Shes a little bitch sometimes, she likes to cut out and takes ages to warm up but i LOVE her. We've recently met, and i can feel a hectic bond coming on here :D

My family, is so awesomely wierd and funny and the best thing about us, is our ability to stick together through any and every situation that arises!!! They are my world, and without any of them, i wouldnt make it through not even ONE day!